Housekeeping Under Way

My life is becoming what it is meant to be and I am getting to where I want to be,  in my present circumstances.  We can't go back and make different decisions than were made in our youth.  However, we can take a look at where we are now, where we want to be and what we want our lives to mean and be about, and bloom where we are planted.  We have that option, and I have already taken that option, and reordered my days, accordingly.

There will be less of out here, or, possibly, none of out here.  I have yet to make that decisions, and I see now that the decision hasn't quite yet been made for me.  It turns out Windows expects me to buy an upgrade to keep this old machine of mine running.  I don't want to have to buy anything, in order to accomplish that.

For years, I have been on and off the internet, toying with not being modern, and getting  back to basics, from time to time, only to get sucked back into it by the facts of this world's communication and social structure that seems to require us to be out here, just to stay in the social loop, even with family. 

I can't seem to make up my mind about it.  The availability of resources out here is also a big draw, both in media and research, so it's going to be a tough thing to sever, from my life.  It may be that I need to take a year or two off, only, just to bring my physical presence to where I want it.

I once thought I needed to live in my Madison world and my Neenah world both, then discovered that those in Madison, don't plan to stay in Madison, long term, so there is no point to keeping a residence here, and moving back home, to Neenah, PERIOD, would make more sence.

It feels unsettled, as long as I am in Madison, on my way to being in Neenah, at some point, so I am trying to accelerate that process, and be home soonest.  Wish me well on that, because I have to wrap things up here, by selling my home, and that requires preparing it to sell, and then finding a buyer for it that will pay me what it's worth, so I can get back home, where I belong and want to be.

Meanwhile, spiritually, I have already brought myself, with God's good grace, back to where I belong and want to be.  He has been so good and gracious to me, to show me myself, as I truly am and help me understand where I need to be, to be in His will, for my life. He has also waited, very patiently, for me to figure all that out.

Physically, not being where I want to be, is taking a toll on me, emotionally.  My heart longs so to have it all accomplished, but it will have to take the time that it takes, to get the job done right, and leave me, in a good place to keep on as I have now begun, spiritually.

Now I am also on my way home, as well as on my way Home, and that is a great relief.  God grant wings to my plans and get me home soon, with a safe take off, and a safe landing, as well, on both journeys home.

He's a good God. You can trust Him with all you have, and trust Him with all you are, as well.